so, i'm sitting here with a broken heart. if that's even possible. my heart's been broken so badly, nothing can really and truly fix it. it's gonna take the best of Heaven to do so. but, i stopped believing long ago that it ever will. after countless guys, and watching two of them get married two weeks apart, it's really no wonder. two years gone by and still, i can't get over that boy henry. celebrated eleven months last week. two years ago it started. had to watch and not say anything. like it really would have helped anyway. that's when i stopped believing in love, when they started falling in love. and i still haven't cried.

now, of course, there's another i like. it happened after the obligatory rebound guy. this new guy, i already was getting a clue he liked someone else. now, she's moving half way across the country- from cali- to be here. i know it's for him. like i couldn't see that one coming. she'll be around him everyday for a month and i won't because i live too bloody far away and don't have a single thing planned this month. first time this year that that's happened. i can't even believe that there will be a chance. that's too hard. it takes too much effort. and i just can't fight anymore.

besides, how can i beat moving half way across the country?

welcome to the great lawn of life

welcome! i'm so glad you could make it out to our little corner of the world! here, all are welcome and greatly enjoyed. let me give you a tour.

in this area are the medieval and renaissance. note the "huzzahs!," jousts, and music. it's all good fun here. i love the outfits. same for victorian era and the flappers. hippies, beats, and 60's counterculture gets their own area too. come along, more to see.

here, we meet the rockers, the punks, and the alternative music crowd. next to them, is the new age. then broadway and soundtracks. there's even swing, blues, and other great music to dance to. see, they're getting ready to dance at the shotgun palace, just up the hill.

now we come to the library. very large and always expanding. always a variety, too. the favourites are on the top shelve. the steinbecks are in the doc marten's box in the corner.

next is the movie area. another large variety. we're still working on the james bond collection. we'll see how the ebay bids go.

this is the area where we write. everything from fan fics to musicals and plays.

we come now to the tv area. we have everything from drama to comedy to sci-fi and more.

here's the great lawn dining table. we always have good fare from all over.

here's where my friends always hang out. we're always telling stories, playing games, singing songs, dancing, and just living life in general.

and now, we've come full circle to my lawn chair. i always have a pina colada and snickerdoodles on my side table and a few flamingos to give me company. hope you've enjoyed your short tour. we'll be exploring the place more and with more eloquence as time goes by. pull up a chair, have a cookie. stay for awhile.