so, i'm sitting here with a broken heart. if that's even possible. my heart's been broken so badly, nothing can really and truly fix it. it's gonna take the best of Heaven to do so. but, i stopped believing long ago that it ever will. after countless guys, and watching two of them get married two weeks apart, it's really no wonder. two years gone by and still, i can't get over that boy henry. celebrated eleven months last week. two years ago it started. had to watch and not say anything. like it really would have helped anyway. that's when i stopped believing in love, when they started falling in love. and i still haven't cried.

now, of course, there's another i like. it happened after the obligatory rebound guy. this new guy, i already was getting a clue he liked someone else. now, she's moving half way across the country- from cali- to be here. i know it's for him. like i couldn't see that one coming. she'll be around him everyday for a month and i won't because i live too bloody far away and don't have a single thing planned this month. first time this year that that's happened. i can't even believe that there will be a chance. that's too hard. it takes too much effort. and i just can't fight anymore.

besides, how can i beat moving half way across the country?