Life Under the Radar

I'm one of those people that has a hard time opening up to people. I'm also an introvert and an only child. Early on, probably partially due to moving a lot, I learned to keep to myself. You don't get hurt if you don't get to know people or talk to them.

Even now, with as many people as I know and like, I often feel really alone. I will get asked to stuff, but not all the time. Sometimes, it feels like not enough. And when I invite people to things, few ever show up and the people I really want to attend don't bother even looking at the invitation. I'd rather at least have a no.

So, I end up getting let down. A lot. And it sucks.

Too often I am- or feel that I am- overlooked, ignored, and unliked. Even when I try to start to change, nothing changes. Then, people get busy and things start and there's no time to really get with people because they live too far.

It gets lonely in the Sahara.

Most people never really understand what it's like to be an Eponine. Not all of us are shot at the barricades like our patron saint. Most of us still have to deal with day to day life. And it's not all wooing after Marius. There's the things we're never invited to. There's the times we're overlooked for something.

I'm not the type of person to just go up to someone and say, "hey, it bothers me that you won't even say one little thing." No, I'm not pointing fingers. I'm just rambling.

♫Girls like me aren't hard to find
We grow like roses on the vine....
And if you somehow love us back
We think there's something wrong with that♫